1st post after almost a fuckin year.:|

ok. first off, i'd like to welcome myself back to the blogspot community. i can't say that i'm fully back but i definitely am for this entry.

First things first... Toto (1977-2008)
You have been introduced to me in my childhood and have been a been influence in my life growing. your music has served as a medium of release for me from time to time. seeing you live for the first time back in February 14, 2004(my first ever concert) was definitely one of my most memorable nights of my life. your set was completely perfect and flawless. i still have the ticket from that show! the energy of that night was simply one worth remembering.... one of the few moments where i felt my heart pound really hard because of excitement. and as if that wasn't enough, i was lucky enough to see you guys perform again back in April 3, 2008... wasn't completely familiar with the set for that show.. but it was high energy and classic music at it's truest form. thank you again for those memorable nights and the wonderful music. you will be missed...

OK. next up.

i don't know what's up with me... but i really thought that things were going really well... but i guess in life, nothing is perfect... there will always be something to block your way or even dirt up your driveway... i just had the surprise of a lifetime. to me, not a surprise at all. but to some. maybe. maybe not. i don't really think that it's a surprise or is very shocking to begin with... but whatever it is... i hope this works out. i'm really trying hard. if i can do it, then i would. i'm not talking straight, perhaps i'm the only one who'll understand this or even read this entry... but whatthehell... i feel the need to blog. i don't wanna get affected again like the last time. i'm still here, trying to be the best Raymond Robin B. Gatmaitan i can be... i really hope things work out.

last.

Family is one of the most important things in my life. i just want to point that out. i'm not only trying to fix families... more than that... i'm trying to heal hearts. let's act mature and fix this like true families do.

time moves so fast. i hope it stops for awhile. or maybe even rewind back to a certain point. where things were "going well".

i hope things get better.